Another day, another episode of depression

I'm finally using the blog for its actual purpose. Cool, right? Anyway, back to the topic:

Kinda sucks to be hit with depression, you know. Sure, it's not as bad as it was 3 years ago, but it still sucks. Nothing just seems fun anymore. I know I said everything will get better, but I never said the wait is gonna be easy. It also sucks that people usually shun me for being weird. Yeah, I know it's super annoying being around me, and I know everything will be my fault as long as I'm involved.

Fahmi, out.

Love(?)

My generation (and the generations after mine) have a very twisted view of love, in my honest opinion. Their view on love is that both people like each other and are in a relationship, and just dismiss it off just like that. Love, in reality, is a very, VERY, complicated thing. It just doesn't mean liking each other, it also means being there for each other, being supportive, comforting, you get the point. That is why serious relationships (you know, the ones where the people actually WORK to keep the relationship going and actually genuinely love each other) last a long time, some even end up marrying each other.

And yes, this is coming out from a guy who hasn't even gotten into a relationship, so don't take my word 100%. Go ask someone who is in a serious relationship, please.

Gettin' Real With Fahmi

It's about time we get real, here. Life will suck. Really. You will feel like shit at times and feel like you could do nothing to relieve that feeling. Especially during secondary school. However, lemme tell you this: Don't fucking worry. You should be fucking grateful you're still alive and functioning well after that. I'm not gonna use the "people have it worse than you" excuse because it's not gonna make you feel better.....but to say that your life is over? Fuck you, and fuck your mindset about life. You wanna complain that there is nothing there to do to relieve your pain, so be it. See where that lands you. God/The world has no right to provide comfort and/or fun to you. You have to go and FIND IT YOURSELF. Also, like everything else in life good or bad, the pain will soon be over. Don't end it too soon. Please.

Weird

As many of my friends (or acquaintances..... mostly acquaintances...) would tell you, I am pretty weird. Not weird in a sense that I'm not normal (though it is pretty accurate...), but in the sense that I stand out from the others..... and not in a good way. My "weirdness" got on the bad side of A LOT of people, which lead to my depression episode during Sec 2 and Sec 3. Being weird is not really a good thing, in my opinion, because of how much you stand out from others, causing many of them to actually straight-up INSULT you for not being normal. For 4 years, FOUR FUCKING YEARS, I have been trying to change my weird self into something more tolerable than normal, and honestly, I think it's for the best that I am not as weird as I used to be. Sure, I can be crazy sometimes, you will see that I will be guaranteed normal.

Fahmi, out.

Perspective

Sometimes, you gotta see the situation from a different angle or point-of-view. There are people who view the world differently from you, so you have to understand where they're coming from. To you, I may seem very weird and unfocused, but to me, I'm just being me and I have a lot to deal with in my mind. Remember, you won't be able to solve any problem just by looking. You have to see it from a different perspective.